Eating My Own Cum Without Chickening Out Last Moment

I've always wanted to shoot cum into my mouth while I'm having an orgasm. To taste it and feel it. But I always lose interest the moment I cum, specifically because I'm afraid I won't like the taste. But I found a way to do it.

First I keep a glass of water right next to me. Then, if I edge for about 30 minutes, the arousal makes me motivated and remind myself that I can always drink the water quickly to get rid of the taste. When I finally feel ready, I get up on my knees kneeling down, and cum into my left hand. The moment the first spurt hits my skin, I quickly swipe it across my lips and tongue, and then swallow. It has to happen immediately because if I wait for the second and third spurt, I lose interest. But do it right away and I can get the entire first spurt into my mouth and swallowing it. It feels amazing.